Liquid

Winding down, wound around the cord
Trickles down into the blackness
Soundless, movements without consciousness
Thoughts without feeling, sentiment
Descend into nothingness, resentment
Existence vicarious drawn plain through you
Cast a shadow of light through the darkness
Blinding unopened eyes, futility
Continuous motion, inevitability
Come to where organic came to rest
Come to find yourself in a place of absolution
Absolved of sin
You are unstoppable.

Elderly Gentleman

When I was young I used to want to be
But now ambition seems so vacant
When I first heard the voice in me
It was extolling the virtues of patience

Sliding across from the left to the right
He sits with a book in his hands
He is the one who has cracked up my life
I know I interrupted his plans

I am falling to pieces in the afternoons
When the sunlight shines in through the window
I’ve given up on hopes of returning soon
I have picked up this fate, now I can’t let go

Every time I try and move upwards
I only feel myself sliding back
Faceless, futile, he brings a taste to my mouth.


Perhaps, Perhaps
Abstracted from the reality I knew
Made separate and now long forgotten
Perhaps if they’d though of me, perhaps then, perhaps
I could move in time lapse, not trapped, trapped
Scratching my way up from the bottom
Able to prove my words as true

The wind lashes through the rain
It brings my clothes as tatters upwards
Rising from my back, where perhaps, perhaps
Unable to cling onto my sole way back
Used to be in space and time, now only hurt
I am trapped inside this plane.

Orchestra

Strings for my bed
And another story to get straight
Tapping out the melody
Trying to transcribe the voices in my head

Every day the white blade of sheer terror
Ripping through the muscles of my back

I can hear, everyone is crying
Never knew their names
I guess in the end it hasn’t mattered so much
I used to be human

Every day blackened hammers falling
And my life is cast high over hell.

Control 2

Exceptional circumstances lead me to the edge of the platform
Out across the metal lines drawn around the edge
Screams of lights brought about my head
Confusion and panic as eternity touches me
Stretches the tips of my fingers
I move through the dark notes into the sky

My mind wanders and I stray through the railings
Oblique in descent, hit the ground and keep falling
Through and through my body like solar wind
Every word thought a little more hope of reaching hope
Brushes past my reverting skin
I have removed the only things standing in my path

The flesh is something I could never replace
Made bolts of energy through the consciousness of another
My actions change the nature of myself, here lying
Beneath the sea where I drowned I am made new
Skin removed and memory bent
A new shard of light behind the eyes of another young hopeful.

Meeting Here

Into the dark you formed around me
Abrupt, disjointed, profane
Touching things so holy
Scraping down my soul

I was a cracked pane
And you pushed, you pushed, you pushed
And eventually your fist smashed through
A shower of blood and broken glass.

Trapped

Remembering the past is nothing more to us now
I let go of your hand in the running water
You drift into the distance.

Across the broken boats beneath the surface
Into the waiting arms of angels
Open arms and kept behind locks.

The air can’t carry the smell
I remember it so well, trapped here
Amongst the fading flowers.

I have so many regrets,
I’ve never done the right thing in my life
But I know that I’ve tried.

Control

Forgotten flower
No scent of perfume
Nothing but the dust now

Building pace, steaming up
For disintegration comes
I won’t be held responsible

Look into a mirror
Don’t recognise myself
Trying to remember who I am

Father, voices inside my body,
They are not my own

If only I was strong
I would take control,
But the fact is I am weak.

Fallen Friend

Peace, asleep and dreaming
Don’t forget who I am to you
It’s so hard to spend so long apart
Adrift and in another world

Believe and you will become me
Don’t go out into the street
It’s so dark out there, you’re sure to get lost
I can’t face losing you again

Forget me not my fallen friend
You’re behind the fear and sleeping sighs

Time is long, long, long
And you can’t trace me through
I’m never coming home, look into my eyes
The crowds of children outside

Forget me not my fallen friend
You’re behind the fear and sleeping sighs.

I could feel the fire within your soul
As it consumed you at the last.

Renewal

Looking me in the eye
I don’t know what I’ve become
But do not get so close
I can’t predict myself
Within expressed too easily
Without my new identity

I can pick you from the crowd
Each one still in a sea of noise
Each will watch me turn
I renew my emotions
Into shadow, moving light
Leaving every thought behind

When the future moves in me
A new reality to the world
A new morality, a justice
Never felt before
And I will end as you’d begun
And soon the dark engulfs the sun

I move across to the other side
A barren place I cannot judge
I made a mistake in coming here
Every cell split
There is no chance of turning back
Whilst my soul remains intact.